I've been reading, as I'm prone to doing. Actually, between work and my recent "studies" (personally, not school orientated) I've been pretty absent from this forum. I've found more and more that the best time for furthering my knowledge outside of a class outlines, is during the summer, between semesters. Any other time its too much of a, well, hassle. At least for me.
Anyways, as many of you know, my feelings on faith have been in turmoil for quite some time now. Mostly atheist, though rather displeased with the title and the company it entailed, I've been looking around for a truer way to define my faith.
And I've come, through this time, to the idea that there is indeed "God." But rather than view God in a form of an entity, I prefer to view it in a way that, well, I'll explain in a moment.
My view on faith now really forces me to look back on a discussion I had with psycholopher on the very essence of God, back when Blizzard and I first founded this forum. In
this discussion we talked back and forth about the idea of God not existing in the mindset laid fourth by the standard thought processes. And to be honest, since March of 2005 when we originally talked about it (on the forum, and at length off of it via Instant Messenger) the idea has weighed heavily on my mind. And its taken about this long for me to accept the current idea that I've come to.
The existence of "God" is the essence (being) of the sum total of human existence. Or, in other words, we are God. Now, I'd love for this not to be interpreted as me claiming that humans are "gods," but rather that by or very existence we are, of ourselves, creating "God."
This is why I don't say there is "
a God," but rather, there is "God."
Confused yet? If I was reading this attempt at explanation, I would be.
I guess to sum it up, the totality of our existence is our "essence." Our "essence" is our "being." "God" is our "being." Existence is "God."
This system of belief does allow for an essence higher than myself, the totality of human existence. Does this make me humanist? Perhaps, though being associated with a belief system, however unstructured/ non-dogmatic it may be has always been less than appealing to me, I might be willing to concede the point to a certain degree that my views go along those views as well.
Comments and questions welcomed.